Tuesday, October 25, 2011


Edie's at it again. I've been feeling strong, fulfilled, gorgeous, assured.

Then, all it takes is an email with a news video clip frOm a reading I was a part of this past weekend and bam! Fat, insecure, uncastable.

And obsessed.

How many times will I watch the video clip and hear Edie's voice telling me all the ways in which I could have looked better and sounded better. Hear her tell me that people are bound to see it and wonder what the he'll happened to me. Or decide they can't cast me because I'm so immense.

7 weeks of running joy and confidence threatened because Edie scapegoats it. The message of not working hard enough and my body not changing responding fast enough.

It's a battle. Every day a battle.

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