Anyone know what the traditional celebration gift is for 6 months in treatment? No? Well, that's OK I guess.
So, yeah. Six months in.
I'm not going to get too contemplative here because well, that's not really how I roll. Some amazing things have happened in the past 6 months and some things have totally sucked. How's that for romantic? LOL
To be honest, it feels like I've been in treatment forever some days. I'm not a patient person by nature so frankly, this whole business of working towards recovery just pisses me off a lot of the time. I'd like recovery now. The end. Stamps foot. But yeah, that's not how it works I guess, huh?
Instead, I'm going to try use this anniversary as a chance to recommit and refocus and remotivate. I feel a little like I've "settled in" and have to seek out the opportunities to push myself and my ED rather than there just being a bazillion things to choose from to work on like in the beginning. Having the value assessment I think will help tremendously as I get back to having my appointments this week. Get a little focus and direction going again.
Overall, I'm thrilled with how far I've come in the 6 months and will choose to embrace that part while I look forward. The tremendous sense of relief that has come for me to have this all out in the open is worth any of the valleys I hit while processing and working on it all. The relief in knowing it's OK to be fallible and deserve help and support is a gift in its own right.
Maybe that can be my anniversary gift. How does one go about declaring that?
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